A VILLAGE CALLED FORGIVENESS
(Español Abajo)
We are “rocketed” into this fourth dimension of existence, the spiritual,
when the dimensions of our physical, mental, and emotional states
are in harmony and balance, each with the others…
Barefoot’s World  2013
Besides the logical dimension and the operational dimension of knowledge,
there is also a directly felt, experiential dimension.
Meaning is not only about things and it is not only a certain logical
but it also involves felt experiencing. …
Meanings are formed and had through an interaction
between experiencing and symbols.
Eugene Gendlin 1970
A year or more ago, I was blessed with having a Sponsee who loved Focusing. She had been introduced to it at Costa Rica Recovery Center, which uses Recovery Focusing as part of its treatment plan. I was able to invite her to use it in her Program of recovery.
It was amazing to me how powerful Focusing was to help her find her way through life without her addictive process. I am honored to share one of her experiences, one among many such experiences that helped to keep her on the path to healing — with the 12 Step pathway as the foundation, of course!
I suggested she work Self Empathy daily for a while before she started her fourth Step (“Made a fearless and searching moral inventory of ourselves”), as she dwelled a bit in the Third Step of trusting her Higher Power.
Below is one of her Self Empathy processes, which, she said to me, crying tears of gratitude, was “like a Quantum Leap for her, taking her “from one dimension to another.”
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Self Empathy Process:
What do I need from myself today?
Forgiveness. I need to forgive myself.
It is not my fault that I am sick. Nevertheless, I am responsible for opening myself to the light of God, I am responsible for being loving and friendly with the people who surround me, I am responsible for giving smiles and good moments.
How would it be to forgive myself? (Welcoming phase of H.O.W. We Heal Model)
It would be like replacing fear with a lot of love. A love which is like ambar, a warm and healing honey. I can breathe underneath this sacred substance.
It would be like arriving at that beautiful place where I am welcome.
The people and the families come out of their houses to say hello to me and hug me. They bring me flowers and gifts and touch my head with lots of love, and they cry with happiness with me. Some say they love me, others say Welcome Home!!!
As I walk, I pass the village and I can feel in my heart how close I am to my house. To my home.
When I open the door to my little adobe house (that is painted white on the outside) I can feel completely forgiven and safe.
What is the best of all of this? (Expanding the Carrying Forward question of H.O.W. We Heal model)
Coming home. The security that I don’t have to run anymore.
The comfort of my home, the smell of my pillows, the delicious soup that is cooking on a slow fire, the certainty that this is a sacred place, that in this town no evil whatsoever exists.
In this town called Forgiveness I come to rest for the rest of my eternity.
I am already at peace, after millions of years, after millions of reincarnations my soul has finally found peace.
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She told me she the rest of her day was like no other since she came into recovery. That she was able to be with people and her boyfriend in a loving, kind, calm way.
The next day she called and shared another process that shifted her “from the dark spirit of her darkness in the cemetery as she opens up the graves of the past (Step Four) to a forest of trees.”
This is the first Sponsee with whom I have crossed Focusing into our working of the Steps.
I am soooooo grateful that this powerful process of the Focusing PAUSE is being crossed with recovery from addictive processes, not just by me but by others (Ann Weiser Cornell, Jan Winhall, Alan Tidmarsch, among others).
Who knows what will emerge in the future?
If she stays on this path, she just may pass on Focusing to her sponsees in the future. 🙂
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I asked permission to share this story from my ex-Sponsee.
I see Focusing as a complement and supplement to the Twelve Step Pathway of Recovery. I do not wish to imply anything other than this when I share about Recovery Focusing. I do, however, know that research has shown that felt sensing is a key to meaningful and lasting change (Hendricks, 2001). As such, it is a powerful practice that enhances and deepens our Program of Recovery.
I do have a bit of discomfort around publishing something related to my Twelfth Step of carrying the message and being of service. I need to trust that this is OK and that my Higher Power has lead me in this direction for a reason. I think I am not breaking any traditions because I am not mentioning my Program. I see lots of writing on recovery, the 12 Steps, sponsorship, etc. on the internet.
Recovery is an upward spiral of ascending to higher levels of awareness while more fully embodying ourselves as we truly are. It is a process. We may occasionally fall back into the dark, swirling tornado of overwhelming feelings. But, with our new tools, we can find our way back to the light. The principles of the program and the practices of Focusing can be our empowering companions on this unfolding journey.
I hope my friend finds her adobe house in the Village of Forgiveness and stays there, where her own garden can blossom with flowers, fruits, and vegetables. She may occasionally wander into unfriendly villages (like self criticism and shame), but I hope she finds her way back home.
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Gendlin, E.T. (1970). The significance of felt meaning. In R. Cormier, E. Chinn & R.H. Lineback (Eds.), Encounter: An introduction to philosophy, pp. 561-566. Glenview, IL: Scott, Foresman & Co. From http://www.focusing.org/gendlin/docs/gol_2084.html
Barefoot’s World (2013). The fourth dimension.  Obtained online on 27 June 2016 http://www.barefootsworld.net/aa-4thdimension.html
Hendricks (2001). Focusing-Oriented/Experiential Psychotherapy. In Cain, David, and Seeman, Jules (Eds.) Humanistic Psychotherapy: Handbook of Research and Practice, American Psychological Association, 2001.

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UN PUEBLO LLAMADO PERDÓN
Por primera vez, hace como un año, tuve una “ahijada” de programa de doce pasos con quien yo estaba usando el focusing para su recuperaciĂłn. Para mi es maravilloso lo poderoso que fuĂ© esta práctica para ayudarla a vivir la vida sin su proceso adictivo.
Abajo comparto una de sus experiencias, una de muchas, que la ayudaron a mantenerse “limpia y sobria” (sin matarse a sĂ misma ni a nadie más, que son sentimientos que a tenido muchas veces) — por supuesto con los doce pasos como la base de todo.
Le sugerĂ que trabajara la Auto EmpatĂa cada dĂa antes de empezar su cuarto paso (inventario moral de nosotros mismos). EmpezĂł la parte de “resentimientos” del cuarto paso hace como una semana.
Abajo esta su proceso de Auto EmpatĂa de hace unos dĂas, que (me dijo llorando con gratitud) “fuĂ© como un salto a travĂ©s del tiempo, llevándola desde una dimensiĂłn a otra.
Que necesito hoy de mi misma?
Perdon. Perdonarme a mi misma.
No es mi culpa estar enferma. Sin embargo yo soy responsable de abrirme a la luz de Dios, soy responsable de ser amorosa y amable con la gente que me rodea, soy responsable de dar sonrisas y buenos momentos.
ÂżComo seria perdonarme a mĂ misma?
SerĂa cĂłmo reemplazar el miedo con muchĂsimo amor. Un amor que es como el ámbar, una miel tibia y sanadora. Yo puedo respirar debajo de esta sagrada substancia.
SerĂa como llegar a este hermoso lugar en donde soy bienvenida. La gente y las familias salen de sus casas para saludarme y abrazarme, me traen flores y regalos y me tocan la cabeza con mucho amor y lloran conmigo de la felicidad.
Unos me dicen que me aman, otros me dicen bienvenida a casa!!! Conforme voy caminando, voy pasando el pueblo y puedo sentir en mi corazĂłn lo muy cerca que estoy de mi casa. De mi hogar.
Cuando abro la puerta de mi casita de barro (que por fuera está pintada de blanco) yo puedo sentirme completamente perdonada y a salvo.
¿Qué es lo mejor de todo esto?
La llegada a casa. La seguridad de que no tengo que huir más.
El confort de mi hogar, el olor de mis almohadas, la sopa deliciosa que se cocina a fuego lento y la certeza de que este es un lugar sagrado, de que en este pueblo no existe el mal de ningun tipo.
En este pueblo llamado Perdón yo vengo a descansar por el resto de mi eternidad. Ya estoy en paz, después de millones de años, de millones de reencarnaciones mi alma finalmente ha encontrado descanso.
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Me dijo que el resto de su dĂa fuĂ© como ningĂşn otro en su recuperaciĂłn Que pudo estar con gente y con su novio en una amorosa, gentil y calmada manera.
El da siguiente me llamĂł y compartiĂł otro proceso, cambiando desde el espĂritu oscuro del cementerio al abrir las tumbas de su pasado (en el cuarto paso) a entrar a un bosque de árboles.
Estoy muy agradecida por este poderoso proceso de cruzar la Pausa de Focusing con la recuperación (y no solo por mi, pero también por otros como Ann Weiser Cornell, Jan Winhall, Alan Tidmarsch, entre otros).
ÂżQuien sabe quĂ© emergerá en el futuro? Si se queda en este camino, podrĂa ser que Ă©lla transmite el Focusing a sus Sponsees en el futuro. 🙂
Sabemos que la recuperaciĂłn nos lleva a la cuarta dimensiĂłn, segĂşn los escritores del Libro Grande de Alcoholicos Anonymous. Cruzando esta dimensiĂłn con la dimensiĂłn del significado sentido abre nuevas puertas a un nuevo vivir.